Hello there fellow humans!
Okay, you're gonna have to bear with me on this one, because the next few sentences I'm about to write sound absurd, even to me. But here goes, on the next line is a revelation I have realised in the last fortnight, that has changed my life.
I love tidying.
Well maybe a slight exaggeration when I say "my life" but it has definitely made a massive change to my state of mind, anxiety levels, and happiness the past few weeks. And no, I'm not talking about going on a quest for the nearest disheveled pile of junk and organising that - I mean going through every aspect of my life and, tidying it up a little.
Still confused? Let me try and explain.
This time two weeks ago I was a mess. Literally. My bedroom was a junkyard of once worn indistinguishable black clothes - such a problem that you couldn't actually see the floor anymore. My wardrobe was not fulfilling its desired purpose of holding these garments, but instead was home to a huuuuge pile of discarded homeworks and folder paper which now rested in a giant lump I was too afraid to even open the wardrobe to look at.
My college bag wasn't much better; the already heavy satchel was threatening to burst with books, scripts, pieces of unwanted paper, loose change, crumbs, and yet somehow not even one black pen. The same general descriptions could also be given for my desk, my makeup bag, my documents on my computer, my locker - you get the drift. This mess was actually causing me anxiety, I would feel uneasy and drained whenever I fought my way into my own bedroom, or when I grappled with my bag to find one book, and that was certainly not what I needed coming up to exam season!
I eventually realised that enough was enough and I needed to stop being ridiculous. I was making myself feel worse by doing nothing and so I decided to make a change. I started with something small - organising my folders on my computer, creating a clear system where I could see where everything went. This simple task immediately made me feel a little bit more clearheaded, and I decided to take it a step further. I took a trip to ASDA (other supermarkets are available) and bought a ton of folders, booklets, wallets, dividers, stationary and other general organisey items. I then pulled everything out of my bag and arranged what I needed into three subject folders, throwing everything else away. The relief was addictive. I carried on, each task a little harder than the one before until I got to the biggest mess of all - my bedroom.
So one Saturday morning, I decided to take a stand. I put on my comfiest, laziest clothes, plugged in my headphones, and began to tidy.
4 hours, 8 bin bags, a bottle of disinfectant, and a whole lot of blood, sweat and tears later my room was spotless, and it was the best feeling I've had in a long time. Even within the tidying, I had managed to change the layout of my bedroom to one that was more open and spacious, and now when I come into my room I can actually relax and enjoy myself, work at my desk, or spend 11 hours on my computer.
The moral of the story? If there's a mess or a clutter in your life at the moment, tidy it. You may feel rubbish or demotivated or unproductive, and while I can't guarantee that it will make you feel amazing, it will clear your head and take away some of your stress, and practically will make your life just a little bit easier - and isn't that what everyone needs?
The next time you feel stressed or anxious or demotivated - try organising something, or maybe just give your room a little change up, it might be just what you need.
If you have any tips on getting organised, or a particular routine that makes you feel less stressed? Let me know in the comments, and until next time...
Lots of love,